Thursday, September 24, 2009

A LONELY WALK IN LIFE - I CHOSE IT!

I too could have followed in the steps of my contemporaries - I too could have had a life with people around me. But I chose to take a lonely walk in life. I couldn't have done it in any other way.

There were too many issues - I refused to put away in the back-burner; I wanted to know WHY? Today, at 56, the W H Y is a ferocious `battle-cry' of my life. I have put everything on stake - for there isn't any other way - and failure and success doesn't matter at all. For me the `attempt in its full sincerity' is my Karma.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

AS I FADE AWAY - THE REAL MEANING OF LIFE IS UNDERSTOOD.

What did I want to become? A business man, a sports person, an environmentalist etc.
I do not know even today what I want to become. But the focus is slowly emerging out of misgivings and doubts - there is clarity that I want to be a good human being.

In this mad rush of collecting material things and trying to outdo the neighbors - we have given up our valuable `living time'. The time to listen to the sounds of nature was minimal - the joy of being a `part' of a `whole' was lost. The thinking that I am myself the `whole' gave me contempt for everything around me. I WAS ME - and nothing else mattered.

Now I have realised that I am not me - we are us - and this gives me the meaning of life. AND I SHALL SHARE JOY WITH EVERY CHILD ON THIS PLANET for the rest of of my life.
This alone is the real meaning of my life. I shall wither away in serving them.