QUIT NOW? NEVER!

FACE UPTO IT! Are you not creating extra-ordinary desires in them and then when they see the `dark' future - won't they curse you. Just because you have a dream and just because you think you can create world champions - and just because these children and their PE TEACHERS are easily misled - don't you think you are one of the biggest criminals. Just because you have a dream - does it mean that it would become a reality. Why do you give yourself this cocky confidence and in the process are you not ruining their `middle class' dreams of ORDINARINESS.

When the Government - its qualified officers - having thousands of crores of infrastructure and training programmes is not able to achieve - YOU A BARE ASSED SKINNY `GIDDU' on the wrong side of fifties, think you can achieve - HA HA - don't you think you should quit now - once for all.
N E V E R RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

JOURNEYING ALONE!

Loneliness is so pure an act that its almost akin to being in a `moksha'. One can be lonely even in a crowd and be `crowded' even when one is physically far away from every one. My loneliness stems from my goals - I have no single companion who would traverse along with me. I have companions who travel along short distances or different periods of my life OR maybe I really don't want a companion on this journey which is full of unending struggles - failures - heart breaks. That, in the end, I will prevail, of that I have no doubt. But journey I must, ALONE.

FEAR! MAINTAINING SANITY

Do you know what fear is? Fear is when you ask a 9 year old Deepu to take 20 children of 9-12 years IN HEAVY RAIN down the slippery slopes of Savandurga - when at that same time you are trying to climb up an impossible cliff to bring down two frightened girls. Having lived such a fear can I then fear??

Fear is when you are training rookies for aggressive `fast brake' basketball; one who breaks out in a gallop going for a very fast lay-up is followed by another by just half a step - AND YOU PRAY that one at the back doesn't mistakenly trip the one in the front - or give a friendly shove into the RCC pillar of the shooting post.

Fear is when you look back at your 53 years' of life and wonder how you survived and having survived - been able to maintain your sanity in this chaotic world.

IMPOSSIBLE GOALS!

The path is full of obstacles but then it is the grit of the traveller that will decided the outcome. Persistent efforts - consistent focus - everything will slowly fall in place. Victory is sure - how much to go before it arrives can be the only variable. AND when the traveller is ready to strive till his last breath - how can any goals be impossible to achieve. Rather, only impossible goals suit such travellers for anything less wouldn't satisfy them.

INTROSPECTION - VALUES TO LIVE FOR!

How can I make myself happier? What are the goals that, if achieved, would give a meaning to my life. What could be my self actualization? I, by myself, can be happy in any circumstance. No amount of adversity can take this `zest' of life from me. The zeal, to live, to enjoy what LIVING dishes out - is a primal urge.

However, I can be happier by `righting' whatever wrongs I see specailly among children. Of course, by what yardstick I am to judge and who has given me this right - is a sobering thought.

To set them on their way - maybe act as a beacon for these `youngsters' could be my ultimate aspiration. A justified self obituary could be - HERE LIES a struggling man who lived a simple life - sharing and caring for the child's joys; in pursuit of excellence in everything he did;didn't match enough in his familys' needs but lived and drank the nectar of life in a fast lane.

GETTING BY REJECTING

Most of the time we keep aspiring for `things' that we are unlikely to get in our lifetime. The `want' makes it `difficult' to get. The moment you stop wanting - you are on the path to `getting' it.

A mind full of desires cannot get any `desire' fulfilled, because as soon as one is `got', others arise and a vicious circle begins. However, a mind which rejects these `desires' gets them - though, of course, they are not utilised. The very act of REJECTION makes these desires GETTABLE.

THE FACES

The `faces' strike suddenly - they jolt you out of your miseries and shower a joy extraordinary to our souls. They have that handsomeness or that beauty which pulls our gaze magnetically and helplessly we are drawn into a vortex of their charm.

AND ALL OF US HAVE OUR UNIQUE PATTERN FOR THESE `faces' - what I may like, maynot be your choice. Yet there are some which are universal. Everyone likes them. As we grow older, our choices also change.

AND a time shall come when for us no `face' will be `face' enough.